So In Wellington I stayed with trail angel John. He and his family were so kind to me. While in Wellington he and a friend took me out and made sure I was adequately fed and watered. The thing was each day my knee felt insecure and clicky and sore. And my gut was really playing up still. So I went to get a remedial massage for the hip, saw a physio for the knee and gave a stool sample to work out what pathogen was being a bit toxic.
The physio said it’s probable my quadricep tendon is torn and it will just to longer to heal and get more painful the more I walk on it. Because I had a ski trip planned for late January I had to figure - do I want to ski or keep hiking to a point I could cope to (which after Tongariro and anticipating the hills between wanaka and queen Charlotte track didn’t seem like much tolerance at all).
On top of that the test result from my stool sample was negative from the main culprits. But you know did I still feel really nauseous and have diarrhea? Yes. And I didn’t want to be infectious and put myself at risk while on the track. I medicated myself to treat giardia because that’s what I thought the infection was most likely caused by and coincidentally the symptoms ceased two days later. But that experience also put me in a vulnerable place to keep hiking.
Finally, the mind-fuckery of doing solo hiking in wilderness areas in alpine conditions was taking its toll. I was losing confidence each day as I was thinking about the altitude gains, river crossings and kilometres and still unsettled weather.
So I made the hard decision to give it all break.
For about one month later I had this conflict in my mind. One part of me said I made the right decision. But another part was unhappy that I didn’t meet my expectations. So it was hard writing a post.
Nonetheless the lessons I took from this experience is that expectations are arbitrary, to cherish the experiences so far and know I make choices to maximize the possibility for enjoyment in the long run.
So the goal is to continue the Te Araroa - South Island - from Wanaka to Queen Charlotte Track in 2020. Its already less than a year to go to that point!
In the meantime I want to consolidate what I’ve learned and put some resources on the blog for others - particularly women - to use. Pleas leave a comment if you want to know anything particular.
And every day the Te Araroa walks with me.